I can't come to terms that I'm gay and I am torn?

It's okay, every gay person reaches that stage. It's hard to accept. Just take baby steps and each day you'll accept it a little more. Try to talk to other gay people, that's honestly what helped me. I had one girl, who was a lesbian, help me sooo much. Just kept telling me it's okay, accept it, and it's not a bad thing. It's not a huge deal, you aren't a different person, you just have a new aspect about you! It's not bad at all. The more you talk about it, the better you will feel. Just take it day by day.